dear fren,

read your blog today. and you opened my eyes to something that i have long forgotten.

"everything happens for a reason"

that used to be my mantra for everything. along with "hakuna matata", "go with the flow" and "life is like a box of chocolates. eat it."
thinking back, i've come to realise i've become very diferent from what i used to be. is it a good thing? is it bad? did i really change? or is this just a phase i'm going through? (started laughing when i typed phase. there's a whole chapter on phases in material science and i automatically imagined myself going through all the eutactoid eutactic nonsense. haha..)

and you're probably right. i will be fine. but i cant help but feel like i've lost a part of me that has my heart and its now free to be savaged by wolves (or wolf. which is actually the case), and i cant protect them anymore.

whatever the case, your entry really did make me stop and wonder for abit. and i have gone far beyond my own capabilities to change the way things are. like trying to save someone from falling over a tall building by jumping down after them.

everything happens for a reason. and maybe my reason has yet to be seen. just have to wait and see.

right. starting to mentally pick apart my post right now from a different viewpt. and i think i should stop before i just demoralise myself again.

because someone once said that they cant wait. kk. i better stop before i become harsh on myself too.

thank you fren.

"eres gata. muy guapa."

hahahaa.........