was thinking about what someone had told me, about the process of breaking up.
"you've been single for 18 years of your life. you'll learn how to survive by yourself again."

to be honest, i dont ever think i was ever alone in this world, except maybe for awhile in secondary school. and that wasn't a very nice time.

had typed out a super long story about my life and all. but i think its unnecessary at this point in time. i'll save it for people who want to talk to me and ask me about it.


but i shall summarise. i have never really been single in my life. and for that two yrs or so period when i really was alone, it was a very ugly part of my life where i was anti social and everything revolved around the thing i used to replace the need for someone close; anime.

so yeah, thinking on what that person said, i dont think i will ever learn to be single again. because i never was. and everyone that i once depended on before when i was unattached cant be depended on anymore, as they have found their own to be with.

i guess thats all i have to say.
always very hard to get out what's really in my heart.
it sucks... having a cage around your heart...

i miss you...