Dear God...

I really am starting to wonder what God is trying to do to me.
First off, it started to rain non stop since yesterday. which is actually very nice.
but its also very nice cuddle weather.
and it brought back memories.
but i dont have a particular someone to cuddle.

but i was ok.

then, i went to bed and had a dream....

still, i was ok.

then i got an sms and my heart started to race and inside i was jumping for joy like a mad baboon. but i knew that there was no chance at all that wat i'd read would be what i would always hope for.

still, i was ok.

then the radio started to play all the love songs it could get its hands on, in particular songs that were saying "i'm not moving on". and that was really screwing with me.

still, i was ok.


then i come back to my blogger account and then instead of seeing the normal three blogs i have, i saw a fourth one too. and it was "the story of a fuzzy nanuk". do you know wat that was? it was our very first blog together. and i was literally jumping for joy that hopefully we could salvage that blog that i had deleted out of rashness a long time ago. and i went through the switching process and i got more and more excited. but once the switch was made, it disappeared again.

this time, i wasn't ok.

Dear God, what are you trying to do to me????