i am in the mood to rant long long today.
so sit back, relax, and enjoy the show. :)

to start off, here's a little story i've encountered in the journey of my life.

Once upon a time, there was a boy and a girl. they met while studying, and became good frens.
and before they knew it, they developed feelings for each other, and became a couple. (just realised this is a very common scenario but nevertheless, back to story.)

they were madly in love and said to each other that they would make it through, even though they came from two different worlds. they said that they would overcome the odds and fight it out. and the boy argued with his parents. and the girl argued with her parents.

but even after all the fighting from each respective sides, the outcome was unbalanced. the girl got her way and the parents were willing to accept the boy for who he was. the boy's family however demanded that the girl change her ways to be a part of the family. the boy told this to the girl, but said that he protect her and carry on fighting for her, willing to do anything to be with his true love.

but the fact remained; the girl had everything to lose while the boy had everything to gain.

and what happened next?

that really depends. in my story, the boy carried on finding a solution but never made any mention of it. and the girl continued to sacrifice for the boy, but without any verbal comfirmation from the boy, had had enough. and the boy, who had his own frustrations about things, said the same thing. and they had a very very messy break up which seems almost unrecoverable.

but to my dear fren in pakistan, i hope this doesnt happen to you. and like wise to my fren in singapore. i pray that the same thing doesnt happen to you. never lose sight of the final goal. and as long as you never lose that hope, that image, that goal in your mind, you will end up where u need to be.

moving on, the past few weeks in hall has been incredible. i've had so many things happening to me that i have no idea how my next semester in school will be. already shaking with anticipation at all the new challenges given to me. my time table is incredible. it starts at 0830 everyday and ends at 1930 for three days. the other two days are early days, with my wednesday being almost a no school day.

and then i'll be in charge of the capoeira club next sem too. looking very forward to that. onli thing that i dread is having to deal with mestre. but now i'm starting to wonder what i can do to help promote the club and to expose NTU to this wonderful martial art. thought of making a video presentation. but a funny one that is humorous enough to keep anyone entertained yet informative enough for ppl to understand all about capoeira.

back in hall, we're having the hall olympiads and its been great so far. just had our first softball match against hall 13 just now. totally thrashed them. dont blame them for feeling lousy at the end of it. i would if i was them. we really totally thrashed them. i played center field. so much running... but i like it. and then i always seem to be given the heavy batter role. but i have yet to really strike the ball with such force that it flies far. but for the record, i've hit every ball that i've swung at and always gain at least a base each time. thats pretty good in my opinion.

rugby interhall is starting soon. i'm playing as a back. but not sure which exact role yet. i've been told scrum half. but we'll see. really looking forward to this one. because i now have a chance to really just run and ram anyone in the way. all the anger pent up inside. hehehehe.

been looking around lately and going out with other ppl. but after alot of things, i think what my mom said still rings true. i'll end up with a chinese wife. or at least east asian. i dunno why. guess its just a personal taste or something. or maybe someone who is as mixed as me. and shares a similair lifestyle. thats going to be damn hard to find. but the process is going to be fun.

results coming out soon. hope i dont fail any subject. i dont think i will. but i dont think i'll do extremel well either. whatever the case, i'll be happy with B's. any less and i'll definitely be disappointed. and also, depending on my results, i might join DSA. and then, hopefully, i'll be able to go for the competition in japan in march! but will really have to see if i can manage. already holding on to so many activities at the moment. studies first yeah?

hmmm....
growing tired....
shall continue with part 2 of this long post tomorrow!
nights!