lonliness

Dear lonliness,

i'd appreciate if you'd leave me alone, as ironic as that sounds.

alo!

you really are my brother.

ROXXORS MY BOXXORS!!!!!!!

Alone with no friends

i think i have taken self entertainment to a whole new level.

either that or i have become schizo with the multiple personalities personifying themselves every few seconds.

edit:
yes, definitely a whole new level. dont forget to ask for a video copy of the action!
ahahahaha...

If my life were a movie with songs

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle, press play.
3. For every question, type in the name of the song currently playing.
4. When you go to the next question, play a new song.
5. Don't lie.


Opening Credits
Daddy Yankee - Corazones

wow. wat a starting song. my life starts off like a action-packed movie. haha...

Waking Up
Nightmare - Message

japanese song. but wah.... i wake up from a nightmare! with a message! this looks like one hell of a story waiting to unfold...

First Day of School
Teriyaki Boyz - Fast and Furious

I'm loving how this is turning. Full of action! muahahahaa!!!!! all it needs is me to be walking in with 'the guys', a bunch of kick ass trickers and martial artists, including me of course. hahaa...

Falling in Love
Eminem - Cleaning out my closet

hmmm... mysterious... a dark secret within preventing me from being with a girl i love? tune in to find out...

Breaking Up
Latin guy - Hace Tanta Calor

Spanish song. Directly translated, it means "it is as much warm". I seem pretty happy breaking up. weird me...

Prom
Trax - Blaze away

ah... how does an action hero forget his sadness of a break up? by blazing it away at prom!!!! another jap song by the way. hahahaha...

Life's OK
Siriena - Meridian

hmmmm... some metal song. cant even make out wat their saying. but cool enough for an action packed life. :)

Driving
My Chemical Romance - Ghost of You

Guess in the end, i cant forget about my love...

Getting Back Together
Maroon 5 - Harder to Breathe

hmmmm... maybe we're arguing before we fall back into each others arms forgiving each other? heh?

Wedding
Three Doors Down - The Road I'm On

mmmm.... sounds right.... "thats the same road that i'm on..." perfect.

Birth of a Child
XJapan - Celebration

YEAH!!! THATS RIGHT!!!! WE GOT A BABY!!!!! WOOHOO!!!

Final Battle
System of a Down - Prison Song

fitting for a final battle song. rock it man. WOOOOOOAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!

Death Scene
pink - u and ur hand

hmmm... i have nothing to say... i'm suppose to be dying... hahaha...

Funeral Song
Akon - Once in Awhile

hmmm.... yup.... i died a role model... my life story pretty good ya? full of ACTION, ROMANCE, DESIRE! and death of course.

End Credits
Avenged Svenfold - Chapter 4

yup... once more a metal song to finish it all off... fitting...

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well that was pretty fun. it actually flows and it fits! an action packed movie life of mine. hahhahhahahaa...

pump it up!

i really feel like joining the Adventure Train Race this year.
here's the link.
http://clubs.ntu.edu.sg/odac/atc/main.html

From what i see, i can join in either the tertiary or the mixed open category.
there's no just open category. sad.... thought if there was could ask reza along.
he'd love it.

only problem now is to find a girl who's wants to join too. so, any of my blog readers wanna join the ATC with me?

you know you're hot when...

you catch a girl staring at your body as you walk from the pool to the toilet in only your swim trunks.

I'm here with you

i had my effective communications exam today.
the only paper that i did not study at all for.
it was an open book exam.
and it was that kind of subject you can really study for.
like GP.

so 2 hrs before the paper was due, i began my exam preparations.
i took a nap.
:)

wat was interesting though was the dream i had.
imagine a sparta like setting. Huge buildings with stone floors and that brownish atmosphere around. i was indoors, walking along a path. people were to the left and right, looking at me as i walked. i had this feeling in me. nervousness, but not really fear. felt like i was about to embark on some really scary business of sorts.

just when i thought the feeling would overwhelm me, a hand reaches from behind and holds my hand. a soft, silky hand, cool to the touch. assuming its a girl (it better be), her fingers intertwine with mine. and she whispered in my ear, "I'll be here with you." As i turn to see who it is, light fills the place. and i realise i'm staring at the ceiling. The soft, cool feeling in between my fingers linger on and slowly fade away.

and i'm back in reality.
"damn."
the touch of her hand felt so real, even as i lay awake.
now i wonder who that girl was in my dreams.
i used to have only one girl in my dreams.
was it her?
or if someone else, who?
hmmm....

ah well,
back to exam preparations.

falling...

you know that space in time when your in between being awake and asleep?
i think thats when the mind is most vulnerable.
filled with lots of things on my mind.
about the past.

i always feel like an idiot thinking about it.
about how i handled things.
about how i reacted.
and what i said.
and what led things to the things are now.

its not that i'm not over it.
i am.
but the feeling that i was an incompetent fool will never really leave me.
i guess all i can do is learn from it and hope that one day, i will redeem myself.
oney day, i'll be thrown in a similar situation.
and this time, i will do things properly.
and i wont feel like this anymore.

i hope that one day comes soon.

gd night.

p.s. thank you for making me smile. :)

procrasination

in the words of garfield,

a truly lazy person never finishes his

as the hour draws nearer...

my hands grow prickly.
my tummy is topsy turvy.
less than three hours to go.
i feel the pain in my toe.

Exam theme song

Its the final countdown!
*doo doo dooooo do.... do do dooo do doooooo....*

lets do this.

F( x, y, z )

this might get messy...

DOOM

"SEMPER FI!!!!"
"HOOOOOAAHHH!!!"

*GACHOONK FWWEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeee*
*roar roar roar*
*shout shout shout*
*RRRRTOOTOOTOOTOOTOOTOOTOOTOO*

"This is bravo team! We're under heavy fire! Requesting assist....What the...NONONO ARHHHHH!!!!! OH GOD HELP ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh.......*static*"

"errr.... no."

images from the past

i probably should stop looking at those photos...

EDIT:

make that both pictures AND videos. though it really made me happy revisiting all those years, its like getting high on drugs; you crash and burn hard once the high is gone...

i can see clearly now the rain is gone...

you know wat is encouraging?
finding a mistake in the worked out answer for the past year maths exam paper.

"YESSS!!!!! I OWN YOU BIATCH!!!!!"

can you hear me?

lately i've been talking/singing/yelling/cursing/laughing and wat not to myself alot.
alot. alot alot.
some new habit i've started. very recently.
like last week.
pretty fun though.
but i think i'd look damn weird if someone were to see me.

and i really shud stop shouting into my paper each time i solve a maths problem.
its going to be damn funny if i do it instinctively in the middle of the exam hall.
it'd be like *scribble scribble scribble* "YESSS!!!!! I OWN YOU BIATCH!!!!!"
and then i'd be sitting outside the hall calculating my GPA having failed maths from being kicked out of the examination.

hahaha...
yeah, think i shud be off to sleep now.
another long day of power shoveling tomorrow!

if you didnt know, power shoveling is my version of extreme cramming.
it works purely on short term memory whereby i just speed read through all my work and then blast my way through question after question at an extreme rate. suprisingly, it works. but i wont remember a thing a week later.

but that works just fine for me right now.

tata!!

dear me

stop thinking too much.

you're just giving yourself a deeper hole to fall into.

tag, you're it!

Tagged by
Crystal Cow

“This is what you are supposed to do - cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.”

1. I'm chinese by right. but i dont think i could pass off as one even if my IC reflected that.

2. I self-taught myself to eat with chopsticks when i was in kindergarten. what happened was that i liked my neighbour who went to the same kindergarten as me. she was a chinese. back then, i thought that if i was going to marry a chinese girl,i needed to eat with chopsticks. so my dad bought a whole bag for me and i started eating everything in the house with chopsticks, sometimes taking up to an hour to finish a bowl of rice.

3. I'm of royal descent.

4. I love to check my body in the mirror before and after showers. and sometimes after lunch. hahahaha.... but i'm not vain. really. trust me.

5. i'm shy. :)

6. I have three grandmas and three grandpas.

I tag Reza, Farrah, ej, hui min and mulata

help

i remember when i was in ns.
and some of us decided to go to the gym to train up.
and while training, one of the regulars came in.
he said "wah, this is good. you guys really working hard. but then, the ones that really need the help aren't here."

i recalled hearing this before in school, when we had remedials and supplementary classes. and those who turned up were those who didnt really need it.
and my teacher said the same thing. "those who need the help are the ones that dont come."

and now, even at the stage of adulthood, i realise that such a trait still exists, that some people still deny that they need help, when they need it the most.

i only have this to say to such people:
"good luck in life. you'll need it."

ta.

Do this for me

go to this link and just pick five or six words that best describes me.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=dasboi

thanks!

Could you please....

fuck off.

yes naf, you.

100

my hundredth post!!
woohoo!!!
nothing special here.
haha...

marvelous!

watch this movie.

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/372763

absolutely marvelous!

losing myself

just back from the gym. and as per normal, i did the routine "check-myself-in-the-mirror" test. :)

My weight reduction program has come to a stall. stuck at the 78kg mark.
but its not like i've been working hard at it either. so u might think its pretty good i've maintained the weight.

but from the mirror check, it looks like my body is shrinking too. i'm losing muscle mass!!!! that is bad. very bad.... time to hit the gym harder!

not to mention school work too.

EXAMS IN 1 WEEK!!!!!!!!!!

a silver lining

sometimes it appears without you realising it.

My first video

hey, here's the vid my group made for our effective communication module.
its the first video that i have co-produced!
and i intend to make more.
:D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8YBfViixSIs

Controlled explosion

I am an angry and frustrated individual.

a little experiment

prakash and i were just talking when we suddenly came up with an idea due to a certain trait we noticed on msn.

so i changed my nick to "farhan believes in Jesus", which is true for every muslim.

within a minute, i received 3 ppl asking me if i had converted.

interesting...

haha...

Probability

what are the chances of having some random girl from hall asking you to come up to her room?

just happened to me. haha... but dont get ahead of yourself ya?
there was an insect in her room and she didnt dare touch it.
so i was there to just clear it.

interesting though. made one new fren in hall.

*insert smiley here*

haha...

me

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power shovelling!!!

I'm absorbing chemistry info at an incredible pace. just went through 4 lectures in one hour. maybe its because i still retain all the chemistry i learnt from jc 2 yrs ago. i really loved the subject towards the end of jc.

makes me wonder, should i switch courses?

lost in translation

it sucks being misunderstood.