falling...

you know that space in time when your in between being awake and asleep?
i think thats when the mind is most vulnerable.
filled with lots of things on my mind.
about the past.

i always feel like an idiot thinking about it.
about how i handled things.
about how i reacted.
and what i said.
and what led things to the things are now.

its not that i'm not over it.
i am.
but the feeling that i was an incompetent fool will never really leave me.
i guess all i can do is learn from it and hope that one day, i will redeem myself.
oney day, i'll be thrown in a similar situation.
and this time, i will do things properly.
and i wont feel like this anymore.

i hope that one day comes soon.

gd night.

p.s. thank you for making me smile. :)