boom! and its over.

hey hey.
sorry for the long lag of updates.
just really extremely busy lately with the hall production starting soon.
days full of recording and rehearsals.
very very tired right now.
but i'm waiting for my laundry to be done.

so yeah, karate tournament is over. i got a bronze. honestly, even if i were to have won the gold, i wouldnt be happy. i know i would in the short term. but i'd still feel unfulfilled and unsatisfactory. i want more than just an IVP. and wat made me feel worse was that the national selections was the day right after the IVP. i felt like shit because i didnt know till it was over. and it was made worse when i realised i couldnt even take part in the selection since i could barely even walk in the first place after the tournament. sigh...
still, pesta sukan is coming soon in august/september. so, after my week of guilt free eating (which i have done like mad), it's back to serious dead on training.
i want more.

cast training and recordings have been somewhat hellish. its not really tiring. but we spend so much time waiting doing nothing at times. and by the end of the day, we just feel mentally tired. but recordings arent the end of it. we still have rehearsals late into the night before we can finally rest. and the cycle repeats everyday. sleepy... really hope the musical pulls off good. and i really hope someone would attend the musical. i really do.

sigh... minds been plagued like mad. about things. sigh... want to ramble it all out here. but i dont think i should. because it wont just rouse my own feelings, but that other person too.

sigh...

i miss you...