help

me.

dead

thats how i feel inside.

shut up and train

just found out the next karate tournament is on the 8th of july.
roughly two weeks to go.
great timing. injury just healed and i'm ready.
time for balls-to-the-walls training again.

HOOAH!
:)

i'm happy.

in sync

my heart and my head had better learn how to start cooperating.
everytime my mind thinks i'm finally through the woods,
my heart would have already planted a bungee cord on me and some huge ass tree in the middle of the bloody forest and the next thing i know i'm flying back all the way in.

hard enough already trying hard to let go and move on. i dont need to go through repeated cycles of depression and heartache alright? so dear heart, when it seems that i am going to be ok and am starting to enjoy myself, please dont start bombarding me with dreams and wat not that just wont help me at all, ok?

thanks alot.

why is it...

no one wants to talk with me?

you are a failure

you suck.
you're an idiot.
you are far far far away from being the best.
so stop dreaming farhan.
you cant even make her happy anymore.
fuck off.